As you read in yesterday’s post, there’s already been a bit of crazy hanging about my life this week. Things are not completely on track but seem to be on the upswing. Of course, I would have much preferred to have today’s post already written, say, before today, but that’s minor…and I’ve already decided that I’m not gonna sweat it.
You would think that I would immediately then decide to jump right in to writing. Yeah, I thought that, too, but instead found myself looking at my editorial calendar to see what was coming up next. Logically speaking, what’s next really was – IS – today’s post. Anyhoo, as I’m looking over the calendar, I notice that the post I wrote on February 23rd is missing. And, I go searching for it as far back as the middle of 2010.
After a few minutes of searching, it dawned on me that I didn’t write it. I remember very clearly that there was a large dose of crazy the week of February 21st, which would explain the missing article. A basket full of crazy shouldn’t have stopped me from writing, though. When I was sick and feeling like poo, I still wrote. Yeah, well, whatever. The fact of the matter is that I didn’t write it. Needless to say, this didn’t help my mood.
I mentally kicked myself for not getting to it (I’m not into pain, so the only kind of kicking is the mental kind). I was really disappointed and since writing helps me get through these situations, I moved the article I intended to write today to next week, and started on what you’re reading right now. All the while being plagued by the fact that I fell short.
…which led me to my Twitter feed. Bright and shiny Twitter serves as my distraction and breaking news outlet. Since I also link my blog feed to Twitter, I thought I’d get a few more mental kicks in, and verify that nothing was published on the 23rd. Not sure why I felt the need to subject myself to this, but I did.
And, I was wrong! I DID publish an article on the 23rd of February! I DID, I DID! Yay! All is right with the world again. I am a good blogger. =)
I hurriedly searched for the post and discovered the reason it was missing…it was deep in the recesses of my blog, somewhere back in February 2010. I didn’t scroll back that far during my first search. The craziness of that week only made me type the wrong year. Whew! What a relief!
So, now I’m grappling with the fact that I’m getting old. Or maybe just not getting enough oxygen. Or – and this is a very real possibility – my brain is fickle and toying with me. Why else would the memory of writing an entire blog vanish? Not only couldn’t I remember what I wrote (seriously, I had no clue), but I also convinced myself that I didn’t even write it! If I didn’t have a trail to follow (i.e., Twitter), then it would have been like it never happened.
The Moral of This Story
Don’t play around with your time. Put your appointments on your calendar. Write down the things you have to get done. Don’t subject your time and important tasks to the games your memory plays. You. Will. Lose. Whether you use the old-fashioned pen and paper method or a newfangled digital device, get it out of your head so that you can actually remember to do it. Or that you did it.